Day 7

Still alive. I think…yup I see my breath on the mirror.

So last night I got a shake down with 42grams of protein. This morning I got an Adkins shake down with 15grams.

Tried beef broth and that taste like burnt water. Got a little bit of un sweet tea down. Judy got me some vitamins today. Also got something called Super B Complex. I guess that is a vitamin too. I don’t know I just take what she gives me.

I have to tell you this has been a real shock to me and to Judy. I believe this addiction is stronger than anything I have ever thought possible. My mind is consumed every moment with thoughts of food…should I really do this…do it another way. Basically I am looking for any excuse but what this also means is I have to keep fighting harder and harder.

Like Judy just said and it is so true there is not a snow balls chance in hell of ever getting healthy if I don’t get this surgery. Sure I could lose but I would be outright lying if I thought for a moment that I could keep it off. Thus there is no reason to waste my time on it.
Almost a full week with no food! Nota! Zelch.